I am a horrible, forgetting blogger....

FINALLY fucking finished the list, and I can't find it anywhere in my *cough17cough* NOTEBOOKS!

Not to mention I'm royally pissed off about the friend I was TRYING to re-become friends with.  She hasn't made any contact with me since the whole "oh yeah I want to be friends again" bullshit.  So you know what?

If I don't hear from her in 13 days from now, I'm blocking her on Facebook, so I can stop being a god damned loser and stalking her, trying to find out how many boys she's fucked since she lost me.

Oh, and that best friend of hers? She already slept with her boyfriend. What the fuck else is new?

Whatever, she has her damn new friends, boyfriend, and her daughter (Great going mommy, maybe we'll graduate college together!) and all this damn shit.

And you know what? I have friends that are true to me and do me right, and don't have to take a picture a day with me to prove it.

Now, here's an interesting picture I thought you guys would like to see... These are my dogs, Chance and Sadie.  This picture is old as shit, seeing as the brown one, Sadie, grew to be about a foot taller than poor Chancy pants!  Sadie's a bit baby and loves to be pet, and she gives kisses if you hold a chip out of your mouth X3  I just love my dogs and I know people like puppies so.. do enjoy! :3

Oh, before I forgot, to We Will Change: Yes, I am very self conscious.  I absolutely HATE my body and I don't like to be touched or seen by anyone.  I don't wear make up, because it's pointless to me, it doesn't hide anything. Egh.  I hate myself. Literally.  There are so many nights I call my boyfriend, sobbing, because I'm this close to swallowing a bottle of pills and killing myself.  I hate being this fat.

And, of course, dealing with this bitch ex friend is driving me fucking crazy and so close to suicide, I can taste it.  I always have a knife on me, just in case I can't take it anymore.

So.. on to a less depressing subject...

Question: What languages do you know/ are you in the process of learning?

My Answer: I know English mainly, obviously.  I took Spanish I through III and got good grades, then took French I senior year. lol.  Right now I'm learning Japanese on my own.  My mom got me My Japanese Coach and I think Japan and its language and customs are BEAUTIFUL! Anyone here watch anime or read manga? Hit me up.  Buh bye :3

xoxo
Cry

The Stupid List

Still haven't finished it.  I'm working hard at it, and discovering little tiny things that I do every day that could be added. 
I've been trying to fast and I ended up getting sick.  Ech.  My boyfriend knows, but he's so odd. Whatever.
Also, I'm going to add a picture of my face in this post.  Please don't hate on me for it.....

Yes, I edited the color.  No, my eyes aren't green, they're hazel.  And yes, my name is Paige.

So.. comment if you'd like.  Oh, and I've decided to do a Question of The Day

Question: What are some tips you use for losing weight?

My Answer: No pop, loads of walking, NEVER take an elevator or moving staircase, and eat only half of what's on your plate.

I swear, I'm working on the list...

I've just been really obsessed with Neopets and other things in life, lately.  I feel bad about something I did, and so I'm trying to get over it. Whatever.

Not weighing myself until Sunday.  I'm scared, I've been eating more than last week, for sure.

Oh, and the boyfriend warned me that I'm going to hate living with him, because he doesn't like me not-eating.  Can't help it, really.

And good news, one of my close friends, who knows about my problem, admitted to me that she's also been struggling with bulimia for a while.  She wants to be ED buddies.  It makes me happy..

xoxo
Cry

Couple of Things I'm working on...

First, the credits.

Sparkle Spaz: I make lists for everything too! How weird :D

Speaking of the list, I'm still working on it.  Once it's done, I swear I'll post it on here.  There's just a lot I want to include, you know? Yeah.

And good news, I suppose.  On Sunday I weight 290, and last night I weighed 284.2.
I really do make a goal weights list...

Decided to do something about being fat...

Tomorrow, before SH comes over, I'm going to clean my room and work on a list of things I'm going to do from now on.

I'll post the list on here, if you guys want to read it.

Doubt anyone will.

Cry
xoxo