Summer Question/ I feel like I'm dying..

Okay, let's see how well this goes. I asked you guys about your favorite types of music, and here's your answers! :D

Louise: Lady Gaga, Marilyn Manson, The Used, Childish Gambino, Slipknot, Korn

Fragile Heart: Rock, alternative rock, alternative country, dance.

Sparkle Spaz: Electronic, alternative Swedish House Mafia's "Greyhound", Maroon 5, Panic at the Disco, All Time Low.

Sorry for the crappy paste, lol, and if I got any bands typed wrong :P But here's my list, and some little descriptions.

All Time Low: Very punk rockish, I love them <3 Best song, to me, "Damned If I Do Ya", "Break Your Little Heart", and "Dear Maria Count Me In".

Falling In Reverse: Kind of the same at All Time Low, but awesome. Songs? Oh here. "Raised By Wolves" and "Good Girl Bad Guys".

Brokencyde: AGH I LOVE THEM! The name is epic too :3 Songs would be "Schizophrenia" and "Monster Inside Me".

Paramore:Duh. If you haven't listened to them, yet, then wtf. <w<  My favorite song, by far, is "That's What You Get". Very powerful.

Uhh... (This is where Cryota couldn't decide what band to talk about next...)

Bo Burnham: He. Is. Fucking. Hilarious.  Please, PLEASE, if anything, listen to "I'm Bo Yo", today. PLEASE. My favorite is "Rant" but he's just.. so damn funny XD Please listen to him or watch him! (He's on Netflix.)

Five Finger Death Punch: Please don't flame me xD I like them. Songs would be "Never Enough" and, my absolute favorite, "The Tragic Truth".

Three Days Grace: Yes. Just.... yes. All the songs. ALL THE SONGS.

And lastly, please, don't hate me for being a My Little Pony fan.. xD But... There's these things on Youtube called "Pony Music Videos" that I LOVE. The best are made by DJ Alex, BronyDanceParty, and Wooden Toaster (Glaze).
List of songs: Rainbow Factory, September, 20 Percent Cooler [Please, GOD, listen to it, I love it XD], and Monster.

Welp, I just about bored you all to death :3 Oh, and my new diet? Not eating.

I'm gonna try to just sit around and drink tea and try not to eat anything. I've been texting Tiny Rose for the past few days, and she's been my only texting buddy! D: Anyone else want to text or IM? I'm going to get AOL, MSN, aanndd yahoo IM! :3 So I'll be looking for friends! Hit me up!

Ah The Love

Not being sarcastic. Thank you all, girls, for the lovely comments! I'm a terrible procrastinarorotlkjslkjsraor... so.. I haven't gotten the exact rules of my diet set up yet.

So.. I haven't done a question in a while. I SHALL NOW! And, just for summer's sake, I will post your replies on my next blog post ;D

Question: Describe your favorite types of music.

My Answer: Shall be posted next blog post <3 Tune in next time!

xoxo
Cry

Full Day Are Over

I finally got inspiration from WeWillChange's blog post, saying "last full day". I know she meant of school, but this applies to me.

I'm sick of feeling full, like I am right now.  My new diet will be named FDAO. Full Days Are Over. I'm never going to be full again.  I hate the feeling. I love the feeling of an empty stomach.

And sorry Tiny Rose :( We were supposed to fast today, and I ate like a pig for dinner at my friend's house. I'm so weak.. Hence, this will work.

I'm finishing up the rules for this new diet.  If anyone wants to join, once I post them, feel free.  I'd like some advertising on your blogs too! Lol. I'm not a beggar? x3x..

Anyone here do the Runescape thing? I've been dungeoneering the past few days and I keep getting ditched, lol. I love dungeoneering too, so it sucks D:

Oh and also, I've been wearing more provocative clothing lately, short shorts and VERY low cut shirts. Can this be a subliminal sign of losing weight? I haven't weighed in so long. I will when I get home tomorrow. I'll post it tomorrow night, too.

Anyone up for texting or IMing or anything? I'm about to download Yahoo, MSN, and AOL Messenger, so I'm all open :D Let me know! Toodles!

xoxo
Cry

New Diet: I need to make a name..

I'm starting a new diet.  I'll be posting the rules and such later.  It's mainly based on the fact that I hate how I look, and I want to have a waist the next time I see my boyfriend.

Anyone want to help come up with names? Bootcamp or Moving Makeover or something. Help me.

Depressed, I guess...

Been a while since I've last posted. Went to therapy, she said I have more anxiety than anything, and some depressive patterns.
Told her about the cutting. The not-eating. Everything.

Boyfriend saw me get a text from a guy he doesn't like.  Boyfriend doesn't trust me. Btw, I'm with boyfriend now.  But here's the thing: He's still best friends with the girl he left me for. Twice.

It hurts.  It hurts that I'm not trusted. I never left him.  I came clean about what I did the SECOND it was over.

I didn't hear about the girl until I came here and someone mentioned her name. Then again a month later when he left me broken hearted and alone.

I feel like crying, but I'm in the big sofa chair and boyfriend looks like he might sit with me.




I'm lying. He's not even looking at, talking to, or acknowledging me.


And I'm texting the guy now. So fuck him....

Therapy?

Crap. Long story.
Basically, two good friends of mine left.  I planned on killing myself on May 29th for a long time.  Told one person, they told my mom.  Now, my mom wants me to go see a therapist. And I will.

I'm just scared they'll ask about my eating habits. I want to die, still. I do.  My boyfriend is hurt, but he's glad I'm doing the therapy thing.

I'm Going To Starve Until May 12th

I'll drink water. No food. Possibly juice.

I was webcamming with the boyfriend.  I turned the cam on accident.  He saw my friend's leg.

Now, she's a size fucking 0.  I'm a size 20 on a good day.

He saw her thigh down to her ankle, as she was sitting all curled up.

He acted weird. I know why.  He finally saw someone sexy. Pretty. SKINNY.


I want to die..... I just want to die....

I'm going to starve... I hate myself.... I hate that he saw her..... That I feel like tearing her to bits.....